Life in a Hyper-Sexual World

As a woman without sexual feelings — Ace Spectrum

As a woman living in America, I know that women are constantly being objectified and judged based on how their body looks. I noticed from a young age that people seemed to like certain things about me.

If no one has ever explained sexuality or how it feels to be sexually attracted to another you would never realize that you are different from everyone around you.

A little back story. I liked guys, I had crushes and I found people attractive. I grew up in an extremely pure Christian culture. I blindly thought that me not having a sexual life until marriage was me doing the “good” Christian thing. That is until marriage did come and I hated it. As any “good” Christian woman would feel I thought something was wrong with me. Because you are taught by society that it is your duty and that this is the way life is supposed to happen when you are in a relationship. You lose your voice and your power over your own body. You are told men will cheat if they aren’t getting any. I even had some people tell me if I was giving him blow jobs he would treat me better.

When other women gossiped about their nights and sexcapades I felt awkward and like an alien when they would turn to me and ask me questions about my experiences and mine were the opposite…